I think I got boring over the years. I know that I am not that old but I feel boring. I seem to have lost my sense of adventure and I don’t think people like me as much. I don’t seem to have exciting things to talk about, really. I like rodents. Hmmm i think my suspiciouons are right: I am boring.
I feel like my creative side went down the toilet when I started becoming more serious about my education. I used to love music and had it on all the time. I used to write about really useless things that made my head spin. I used to play guitar and enjoyed seeing my oodles and oddles of friends out for drinks. Now it feels like they have to drag me out to even see them.
I must admit I really miss smoking, damn the tobacco companies, quiting was by far the hardest thing I have ever done. But I loved the chain smoking and coffee while staying up late to hash things out with friends or at the computer with myself. Or just the joy to smoke and think by myself in the sun. Grrr, now it smells gross and tastes worse.
I wonder where my fun side went? If you see it please let me know.
Wish I could help you out with that, been looking for my own fun side for a while now, unfortunately without any luck.
I understand how you are feeling. With school I also have no life… I am tryin to get into ed so when all my friends are going out I’m the one staying at home alone doing boring homework. I also used to love to listen to music… but I just have no time anymore… for anything!
But how did this happen? Maybe we aren’t actually boring but we feel boring b/c we are constantly surrounding with these ideals of what ours lives should be. I don’t like to think that media has such an affect on me, but then I think about seeing it everywhere I go: ads on campus, at the mall, television, I even get bloody concert ads in text msgs from my cell provider that i don’t subscribe for. Where can I go where there isn’t this consume, live carelessly, and forget about everything with substance.
I wonder if I would feel more exciting if I could shut out the messages around me… even for a bit.
I agree with everyone. I can relate. I feel like a hermit but I feel that I have to be. I can’t afford to go out often. I can’t afford it money wise and school wise… I just don’t have enough time. Also, going out with my friends is risky, I might end up hungover the next day and I can’t take that chance.
Blame it on school. I will. Still I know that MOST of my friends are disappointed in me and my boring ways but I am happy. I enjoy my dedication to my school work because I know it’ll have its payoffs.
I don’t know how people do it. Some people seem to be thriving in university. How? I just don’t get it. On the one hand we’re suppose to have this “experience” where we go out and have lots of fun and make friends and memories. Then we’re also expected to kick ass in school. It’s all those college movies out there. All they do is party! But that’s American education… it’s suppose to be easier.
In the end I have my theories but I think you have to do what you want to do. If you want to stay home, then do that. If you want to listen to music then turn it on while you blog. Life is about balance. There’s school but there’s other stuff too that exists to keep us sane. I think I have finally developed a backbone and I think that I am really a homebody at heart. I just happen to be friends with hard-core partiers who really don’t accept my “dedication to my inner nerd”. Maybe you just need a break too, school is over soon, maybe it’ll refresh you a bit.
By the way you’re not boring, actually you bringing up this topic is very entertaining! Look at all the responses you’ve gotten already, you’ve struck a cord with us.